Maria Garipov, Period 7, 12/05/2022

Maria Garipov, PD 7, 12/5
Atomic Habits and Growth

Currently, I have been lacking in keeping up with the standards I had set for myself. I had made a promise to myself at the start of this school year that things would be different than last year. Last year I had a horrible problem with procrastination, all because of my own lack of discipline with myself, and because of this school felt much more strenuous than it should have. Over the summer I had reflected on my habits, and I entered this year with new tactics sure that I could keep up. 

I was doing my work as soon as it was assigned and ahead in most of my classes at the start of the year, and it felt so great. I set standards for myself like doing my homework right after school at starbucks before hanging out with my friends. I had also learned that the best way for me to not procrastinate is to immediately stand up and do my homework as soon as the thought entered my head. I had to adapt this because otherwise I will continue to put things off unless i do them at that exact moment. I was pretty good at following these standards for myself in the first few weeks of school, and I was so proud of myself. However, I had noticed I was starting to slip from this productive mindset, and then the snowballing of all my missing assignments started up again. And now I’m finding it very difficult again, and I’m very disappointed in myself. However, I understand that the power to change my horrible laziness and unproductive habits is in my hands at all times, and I just have to be harder on myself.

I assess myself pretty frequently, and am self aware that these standards are slipping from my mind, so I know that I have many adjustments to make. I am currently focusing on catching up in all my classes, but once I am caught up I get to have a clean slate in the next semester. I am ready to really push myself and stay caught up this next semester, simply to prove to myself that I am not incompetent, and that the academically focused Maria from freshman year is still in me.