Bella Chen, 12/15/2020, PD8, Day C

Bella Chen
12/17/2020
Period 8
Modern Mythology

At this current point in time, what specific goal(s) do you have for yourself? Why?

My goals are to be a more organized person and to improve my confidence and leadership skills. I always feel like I can’t focus at times and dates and times rarely stay in my head. Most importantly, my previous attempts to keep an agenda or to-do list did not turn out how I hoped they would. Not knowing what or how much needs to be done sometimes has led to my developing anxiety. I hate this anxious feeling and dread, and I want to do my best to help move myself from this. Additionally, I want to grow as a leader. I start group exercises and talks more often than not, but I don’t just want to be an instigator. I want to have the confidence to continue leading my group when conversations fall short and others refuse to talk.

How do you demonstrate resilience towards achieving this goal? (or these goals?)

As much as my previous failed attempts change me, I don’t want to give up on my goal. I recognize now that just telling myself to keep an agenda will not be enough, and I’m trying to motivate myself and constantly remind myself to write things down. So far, I’ve taken to having post-it notes instead of an agenda. They’re always in my pocket with a pen, and when I realize I have a task, I write a little bullet point. It’s still messy and cluttered, but at least now I can see everything and not forget them. I am building my confidence and practicing my leadership in group calls with friends and in my group for forensics class. My forensics group prefers silence, and I want to try keeping the conversation up and moving forward, especially since our teacher pops into breakout rooms to make sure we are talking.

How does the world around you affect your perception of this goal? (or these goals?)

The world around me definitely affects my perception of my goal. Especially in today’s society and at my age, a senior in highschool applying to colleges, the tasks and responsibilities expected of us are many and growing the farther we go into the year. These are some of the most anxious times for a teenager, and I feel like it motivates me even more to achieve my goals because of how sorely needed organization, confidence, and good leadership is. I need to shift my focus to achieving my goals, because to not do so would be letting myself drown in the growing anxiety.