Celina Lin, PD 8, 10/16/20, Day C

Celina Lin
Modern Mythology
Ms. Fusaro
10/16/2020

At this current point in time, what specific goal(s) do you have for yourself? Why?

A specific goal that I have for myself currently is being able to maintain a balanced lifestyle between school workload and work. Because being a senior this year means having to apply to colleges and spending time on college applications. I want to be able to maintain a good grade for each class and definitely take every single thing seriously because I feel like by committing more time and effort into doing each assignment would just be better for the sake of myself. I know that sometimes I would go the shortcut to achieve something but sometimes that might not be the best choice. Especially when approaching school assignments, I think that I have shifted my mindset in how to do them. Sometimes, things aren’t as easy as you expect. I feel like back when I was younger, the easier the assignments, the happier I was. That was because I didn’t have to utilize my brain at all, I could go the easy way and easily get a 100. But entering high school, I wasn’t satisfied with this method at all. I thought to myself instead of going the easy way, why not try and work my brain harder. I want to be able to understand each aspect of the lesson the teacher is teaching or if I didn’t understand something or got a question wrong, I needed to get an explanation for it. I thought that if I approach things that way, I would see improvement. I was tired of doing things without putting in all my effort, so I decided to change and try and improve on the areas I am lacking. Also, I personally think that balancing school workload and work is not an easy thing but I think that if I manage my time appropriately, I would be able to handle it. A lot of the time I would feel overwhelmed with the school workload because I wouldn’t have any time to work school assignments on the weekends. In order to work on achieving my current goal, I have to utilize time management and be able to handle the workload coming from both school and work.

How do you demonstrate resilience towards achieving this goal? (or these goals?)

I think I’ve been trying to give myself a break whenever I can because incorporating school work and work itself together is a lot more tougher than I expected. A lot of the time, I have negative thoughts floating in my head because I would always concern myself with “Did I not work hard enough?” or “What have I done wrong?” I am constantly worried about the areas that I am lacking in because I would want to improve on those areas. Resilience to me is being able to refrain from having such negative thoughts and approach things in a more positive way. After all, there are just too many things in life for us to appreciate and be grateful for. I want to push the negative thoughts out of my mind and be able to generate motivation for myself to do things voluntarily. I want to be able to do things at my own decision and my own pace instead of being forced by others. I think through that way, I would be able to improve as a person.

How does the world around you affect your perception of this goal? (or these goals?)

After being in quarantine for a few months, I realized that I can actually accomplish a lot of things. I got motivated by seeing how other people utilized quarantine and looked at it from a positive viewpoint. I thought quarantine would be dreadful because that meant I couldn’t be with friends or go outside as frequent. But, seeing videos online of how people were properly utilizing the fact that they had more time at home, I wanted to do the same for myself as well. I started taking online lessons and I became more active as well. I also thought to myself that if people can make huge progress during the few months of quarantine, why can’t I also do the same and utilize my own time and do something productive. So, I am pretty grateful for quarantine because it gave me time to reflect on what areas I need to work on and allowed me to consider what exactly I want to pursue in the future